New Assignment
Like a new school year with its anticipations—Who will be my teacher, who will be in my class, who will be my friends?— so has been my life, Lord, with more changing roles than I ever imagined.
My name as wife, then mom took getting used to. Then it became comfortable . . . and I liked it. The day my youngest went to school hard silence greeted me as I stepped inside our front door. How did home become lonely, empty . . . ? I dropped to my knees and asked, O Lord, what do You have for me next?
Becoming a “mom of teens” another role, for my littles were now bigs more independent as we let out the kite string and I was needed less and less. Then they were gone.
Who was I without them? For twenty-eight years I’d been their director orchestrating each beginning act encouraging each one’s talent, strengths comforting after every fall preparing each for their solo debut.
My empty nest assignments took years of time to feel a new rhythm, my new place in God’s greater dance.
Now I’m one of the older ones, looked to as a repository of wisdom, advice and this too feels odd, disorienting. How did this happen? How did we, best friend and I, get here?
You, O Lord, rule the seasons of earth; planting and harvest, summer and winter, shall not end,[1] so You rule the seasons of my life.
As I fly higher snuggle nearer to Your heart, I know greater peace, much more rest in Your good provision for every season for every new assignment.
Manna. All that I need You will always provide. Always enough for each day because it is Your nature to give abundantly to Your children who ask.
With You I smile at the future, anticipate the journey, because You are with me, my Emmanuel, my Friend.
Amen.
Another dream of mine, this one vivid and oh so real as I awoke one February morning in the winter of 2017: I walked downstairs to my kitchen to get my coffee, and as I rounded the corner into the dining room, I was startled to see small white discs all over the floor. Scanning the room, I saw them sprinkled on the kitchen floor too.
I was curious, puzzled, intrigued. So I bent over to pick up one of the dime-sized rounds. And then because I thought of what it might be, I tasted it with my tongue. It was sweet and I knew. It was manna!
At that moment I woke up. I threw on my fleece and hurried downstairs for my coffee and my Bible. I looked up the verse and I was right; manna was white, had a sweet taste, and was provided daily every morning. We had just begun our voyage to a new horizon—transition from forty years of ministry to new yet unknown ministry. Already the water was choppier than expected, but in His great kindness God reminded me and us that He was not only with us but would daily give us bread. Sustenance for every unknown step ahead. Though the memory of that dream has faded, the confidence in God’s fatherly care of us has not wavered. No matter what uncomfortable unknown assignment you are facing, you can know that God will be with you and will care for your needs every single day. It’s who He is. He cannot stop loving, caring for you, and providing for you. [1] Genesis 8:22