Schedules
Unbelievable that we are here!
Again my man and I are in a place irritating and all too familiar. I just discovered our schedules are not in sync.
“We talked about this,” he said, “yes, but I couldn’t look at my calendar in that moment and then forgot.”
And now we are double booked. He confirmed the trip, flights were reserved, assuming I was all in. That’s what he heard in the rush of the moment while I was distracted by other things.
My “that sounds fine” was generic, without context or view of the whole. I agreed with only partial knowledge.
I’m having to adapt…again. Changes can’t be made. Grrrrr…..
Lord you know this has been a repeated conflict of ours at least twenty-five years or more. Kids sports, schools, tutors, orthodontists, church, career, committees … our lives mini tornados, debris flying.
Planning for days at home for respite and margin, must be defended but oh how discouraged I become when those hopes are dashed by calendar conflicts.
Jesus you didn’t have a day planner or desk with to-do lists, but plenty of others had agendas for Your life; like my kids, You too had multitudes who pulled, begged and cried for Your attention.
And You came to us with a predetermined agenda for Your life, a plan from before time began, fully designed, notated, scheduled; without reminders on your watch, no to-do list on your phone. You were always at the right place at the right time.
You never overbooked either, only did “things that are pleasing to Him.”* Your brothers, mother, disciples even Your arch enemy couldn’t divert You from Your supreme goal.
How unlike me.
Our calendar conflict is not too much for you to resolve. A reminder for me to pay attention, listen more.
Oh Lord of all help me be like Jesus, always listening to His Father, never multitasking like me.
Help me slow my pace, listen for Your voice, Your nudge, Your peace, Your affirmation; “this is the way, walk in it.” I want to be like You, Jesus. “I am near good when I am near You, to be like You is a glorious thing.”*
May it be ever so, Amen.
[1] John 8:29, ESV [2] Isaiah 30:21, ESV [3] Bennett, Arthur. Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers.(Banner of Truth, 1975), p.10.