Yes Barbara, I can totally relate to what you are describing. My circumstances of my situation may be different, but the purpose is the same, God was doing a work in me to strengthen my FAITH in Him, to see him as BIGGER and greater than I ever thought. I spent 8 years in a DEEP, DARK valley of suffering in my marriage. I did know why God was allowing this. God knew my heart and my intentions were to be a Godly wife and mother. I arose each day with being an intentional wife and mom. I truly thought after 2 years of it the suffering would pass, for sure after 3 years, but NO, not until after 8 long miserable hard years. I did see (not at the time) that God was with me the entire time and when I would earnestly yell for an answer He would answer me, and oh how that would quite my heart and stop my tears. I even asked God why he was doing this, and he answered me "Because I could send no one else, you are the only one fit for the job" was his reply. I immediately stop crying, I felt known and seen by God so I was content to trust my life in his hands. Now that things are better in my marriage, though certainly not where I would like, God is calling me into Lay Ministry. I have given a number of messages in the past couple of years and it just THRILLS me when God lays a message on my heart to speak about. My life and purpose continues to unfold with reason and purpose only God could set in motion. So my advise to anyone is to keep TRUSTING God, he sees the big picture and we do not.
Like you Barbara, I had WPW . As a child and adult my heart raced so quickly it was hard to count. After two ablations and medication it is under control but occasionally I have AFib. Thank you for sharing your experiences and battle to trust God in the our world of joy and suffering.
Love this Barbara especially your sentence.."He was working in the hidden place within me.." This gives Hope for us all!
Susan Yates
Yes Barbara, I can totally relate to what you are describing. My circumstances of my situation may be different, but the purpose is the same, God was doing a work in me to strengthen my FAITH in Him, to see him as BIGGER and greater than I ever thought. I spent 8 years in a DEEP, DARK valley of suffering in my marriage. I did know why God was allowing this. God knew my heart and my intentions were to be a Godly wife and mother. I arose each day with being an intentional wife and mom. I truly thought after 2 years of it the suffering would pass, for sure after 3 years, but NO, not until after 8 long miserable hard years. I did see (not at the time) that God was with me the entire time and when I would earnestly yell for an answer He would answer me, and oh how that would quite my heart and stop my tears. I even asked God why he was doing this, and he answered me "Because I could send no one else, you are the only one fit for the job" was his reply. I immediately stop crying, I felt known and seen by God so I was content to trust my life in his hands. Now that things are better in my marriage, though certainly not where I would like, God is calling me into Lay Ministry. I have given a number of messages in the past couple of years and it just THRILLS me when God lays a message on my heart to speak about. My life and purpose continues to unfold with reason and purpose only God could set in motion. So my advise to anyone is to keep TRUSTING God, he sees the big picture and we do not.
Like you Barbara, I had WPW . As a child and adult my heart raced so quickly it was hard to count. After two ablations and medication it is under control but occasionally I have AFib. Thank you for sharing your experiences and battle to trust God in the our world of joy and suffering.